SEAN ROPER!!!

Lastnight I saw this dude

http://www.seanroperclairvoyant.co.uk/bookreadings/prod_960480-Party-Booking-Deposit.html

I have never done anything like this before because it scares me

But last night a group of us went (8 of us)

We sat seperate so he didnt know we were 'together'

Basically its just an audience

And IF he has a msg for you, he will pick you from the crowd

Well im still unsure of what to think

Some things he said made absolute sense and I could completely relate to him

But then there were things he said that I couldnt understand (Which I might do later on 'in time')

It might just come to me and it will click!

I felt really ill and nervous

Its was a strange experience

And I dont know if i'd do it again

Sometimes I think some things are better left unsaid.

He did ask me if I had 2 children, and my sister patted my stomach and said "Not that we know of" lol

He talked alot about my daughter (I was amazed by what he said)

And he also talked alot about Rob

Rob still doesnt believe in it

And I think he'll always be that way unless he goes and see's what its like for himself.

I went with an open mind

And I come home a little shaken up.........

I still feel weird today. I dont know why

I feel SICK

Like I wanna vomit

A life turned upside down!

2006

The worst year of my entire life.

Chemotheraphy & Radiotheraphy at 19 years old.

It was rough.

It all started with an ITCH!

Then the itch got worse....And I started to lose sleep with it

(I was itching all over my body head to toe)

I went to my GP and was given cream! Menthol cream which made me FREEZING cold when I applied it

Didnt help one bit

So it was ANOTHER trip back to the docs because by this time, I was making myself BLEED from scratching so hard.

He told me to change my washing powder, asked if I had any pets, asked if I used sunbeds often???

I was turned away again, still no further forward.

Weeks passed and it slowly got worse, I was so depressed and tired at work from the lack of sleep.

Then a lump appeared under my collar bone, it was the size of an EGG

I could barely move my head to the left as it was quite big NOT REALLY PAINFUL, just a lump?

I instantly thought, "Oh swollen gland?"

He THEN referred me to the hospital.

I saw Dr Galloway at Sunderland Royal Hospital

He was lovely

Straight to the point but nice.

He asked me 'Have you ever heard of Hodgkins Disease Dawn?'

I was like "What? Nope!"

My mams face changed.

She knew

I didnt have a clue

He didnt do anything, no tests, no blood work, nothing?

All he knew was [I was itching badly and had a lump in my neck]

But he KNEW

He was right.

He then said, "We need you in as soon as possible to do a biopsy"

'A WHAT?'

I didnt know what the hell was going on.

My mam cried in the car all the way home.

My dad was silent (numb?)

I sat in the back seat with not a care in the world.

After all I was only 18.

I was back in hospital the next day for the biopsy.

It didnt hurt, and they glued my neck closed after they took what they needed.

Next on the list was a BONE MARROW TEST

To see if it had spread to any other organs or parts of my body (bones etc)

I couldnt walk after this was done (MOST PAINFUL THING EVER)

LUCKILY that was clear

It was only in my CHEST & NECK

I needed to start Chemo asap.

My first session was booked for CHRISTMAS EVE!

I cancelled it, and made it for the 28th

This wasnt going to spoil my christmas!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I started the chemo 28th Dec and didnt finish it until the June.

I had a 2 month break before starting Radiotheraphy at Newcastle Hospital

I lost my hair :(

I lost ALOT of weight

I looked awful.

But in Jan 2007 I got the best news in the world.

"The treatment has worked, you are now currently in what we call REMISSION"

I was OVER THE MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOON

Im still alive (I thought)

My hair slowly grew back

EVERYONE KEPT TELLING ME "DAWN YOU LOOK LIKE A SUPERMODEL WITH SHORT CROPPED HAIR DONT GROW IT LONG"

But I loved my long hair

I got hair extensions....

I started to feel like ME again

I had to go for 3 month checks then 6 months and now its every YEAR

But I still cant believe I have been through all that

Im bloody proud of myself

I always worry that it MIGHT come back

OR i'll relapse

BUT I HAVE TO STAY POSITIVE

For my daughters sake

Im a survivor.

Because I never gave up.

WELCOME FRIENDS & FOLLOWERS

F  .  A  .  M  .  I  .  L  .  Y 

So im brand new to this whole blogger stuff. Ive always wanted to do one of these.... Its kind of like an online diary that can never get LOST lol. So here goes. Im Dawn (middle name is Marie) Wilkinson. Engaged to my lover lover Roberto. Together we have a daughter, Keira Berry. Im a cancer survivor and PROUD to say I fought the big 'C' back in 2005/6. Im currently in remission (I look at it like ive been given a 2nd chance at life) I live for each day, not a week ahead or month ahead, I just take each day as it comes and once that day is over and done, its gone, in the past, I am always looking forward. Im a very positive person and try to surround myself with only positive people. I dont do negative.

I will TRY to update as much as possible

BUT with a small child to entertain this can sometimes be hard

SO BE PATIENT please :)